Local Woman Boggled By The Ambiguity Of It All

As I advance into this pregnancy, I am reminded once again of all that I had forgotten from the first experience, and I am also reminded yet again that I am still forgetting. My brain is in a fog - it's both terrifying and frustrating how I can forget so much in the midst of making a special effort to remember things. It's like trying to catch tadpoles with my fingers. I tried it once. Didn't get a single one. Nothing much has changed, judging by this morning.

I was en-route to the meeting. Had to check the address more than 5 times because I kept forgetting it. Then when I got there, I checked the floor number before I reached the lift lobby, checked again when I pressed for the lift, and checked again when I got into the lift. Now that's dumb.

Went to teach at NUS for my yearly stint. I have to admit I was surprised and astonished when word got back to me later on that the students were wondering whether I was pregnant or whether I had just been leading a very sedentary lifestyle. Something must be said about how fleeting and rare that kind of innocence is. Clearly they haven't been within 1 kilometre of a pregnant person for quite some time, if ever. Also, they must never have seen anyone with a paunch. Well, I would have liked to retort, just try looking in the mirror sideways a year after you've graduated from law school.

My latest visit to the gynae last week went well. Have noted that even my writing style has changed to vague aimless babbling because at the moment I can't remember what I had set out to write. Gynae did another full organ check on the baby, and confirmed:

1. an anterior placenta
2. all organs in place and growing as planned
3. she has managed to position herself so that her feet are right up against her face. Why, I'd like to know. Possibly so that she can kick me just that little bit harder.

I started to wonder about the state of my mind when I clean forgot what I was supposed to do before getting on the examination table and had to get instructions from the gynae all over again, like we had never done this before.