Flat out, dude.

I've just spent the better part of today giving a mini-seminar to a prospective client. Big company, so we catered lunch for them and had a really detailed discussion of contracts drafting, even talked about how each clause is drafted, why certain words are used or not used, what is the big deal about each different type of clause, etc. Took me a long time to get our foot in the door, so hopefully we now have a new client. Hopefully. I'm very hopeful here, especially since I'm exhausted from all the preparation and stress and work just to get everything organised and running.

Mentally I just can't get past wondering if we will be getting any work from them. Scratch that. I just want to know if we WILL be getting any work from them. The boss is quite calm. He thinks, well, we gave it our best shot. It's up to them now. That just drives me insane, leaving things to chance like that.

The only way to deal with it is to send out emails to 2 more MNCs offering to do something similar. This should increase our chances by 2/3. Maybe I should send out more.

Incidentally when I applied for my first job as a pupil in a law firm, I applied to every law firm in the law directory. That's discerning for you. My pager was buzzing like crazy for a month. Eventually got a job at the (then) biggest firm in the country. Also got so many rejections that they didn't matter anymore.

God. I'm exhausted.